Fear & Disappointment

i'm so useless this time despite after some training/practices. i've been competing the same competition ground for years but yet i still can't get over my nervousness and fear before my turn. every single time when i'm next to go forward i would always be taken back by those competitors' potentials during and after their turns...these instead made me loss my calmness and started getting worried about this and that... in the end, i couldn't even compete to my training's standard. how pathetic! at first, i thought it was really useless to go and compete myself since i'm the only competitor for both categories..be it win or lose, high or low score, i'll still get the gold medal because i'm the only one competing. however as a martial arts practitioner, i have to finish my turn no matter what. only then can i get the medal with a clear conscience. although its really a meaningless competition...overwhelmed by fear and nervousness leads to disappointment this time, or always.

Random

have the urge to post despite not knowing what to type first... there's last day of work, wushu training and gundam thinking that i wanna share about but i doubt i have all the time today to them because i would love to add photos in... but lack of them... so this is gonna be a really random urge post... basically today i'll be training ard evening time before my little brother returns home and getting both my friends' birthday card gifts ready so that i can give them during the upcoming meetup.. nothing more or last... just these stuff for today.
hmm... watched gundam AGE episode 39 earlier on.. was thinking that what else can gundams be portrayed as in terms of anime...?? apart from war... what else..? but they are basically war machines / mecha created in the beginning... but i would say that the anime for gunpla builders' episodes were created based on the modellers' behaviors and passions.. another angle of watching gundam was great! but not so interesting to me.. except for the game console part! that is really intriguing! hahaha perhaps i shldn't waste anymore time slacking here but get down to real business of mine uh..? alright shall do just that! gift cards, here i come! >8)

The Magnificent & Amazing Spider-Man

     

Caught The Amazing Spider-Man with family this evening, 6:45pm at Lot 1 Shopping Centre. Honestly speaking, before watching this movie I was still thinking of the previous Spider-Man's actor, Tobey Maguire. Afterall, this Spider-Man has been acting for the past 3 movies' hero together with his sweetheart, Mary Jane (Kristen Dunst). I do enjoy the movies by Tobey and his fellow on and back stage members all along and now, I'm going to enjoy and anticipate the 2nd movie of The Amazing Spider-Man by Andrew Russell Garfield!